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A Peek Over The Emerald Wall

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Struggling,
Climbing,
The toils of ambition laid bare

Grunting,
Sweating,
Obstacles so daunting and unfair

Tiring,
Grueling,
Will efforts be rewarded or ignored?

Exhausting,
Unnerving,
A zenith drawing closer even more

My love for art will ever spur me on
To strive for greater power not yet gone
The table's spoils linger ever still;
The thoughts of gain and splendor give me chills

Enthralled by my own quest for fame and wealth
I climb this wall, in spite of my own health
I hear the call; I bask in all the sounds;
To fall would set me back by leaps and bounds

I only want to gaze beyond this wall;
This strong, robust, foreboding emerald wall.
Alright, time to confess; I'm intimidated by the other artists on this site; the amount of praises they've received, the struggles they've endured to get to where they are now, and just how much life may have affected them to temper their disposition towards others.  As much as they are nice towards others, I feel like the black sheep of the bunch; never having the skills in drawing they have, or understanding who they are because I'm too timid (in fact, I intend to make a journal explaining who I am as a person somewhere down the line).  I also have little trust towards others, and myself, and as much as I would like to care, sometimes, life still lingers over my head, reminding me that most people are as disgruntled with life as I've become.

The medium in which I work is now overlooked in this age of instant self-gratification and streamlined media, as well as the fact most people just wanna 'look at the shinies'.  I've become a victim of the former in that I do not read stories as often as you might suspect me to, seeing as I'm a writer and all (just in case anyone wanted to ask about that, which I'm fairly certain some would).  I'm more interested in the shinies than I am reading a book (also doesn't help that I have Attention Deficit Disorder, :()  Writing takes a considerable amount of time and effort to really think about, refine, and polish, as much as it does for some to actually read, and again, as stated before, I and most others most likely will just sit around, playing the PS3, or going off to view and/or commission works from their favorite artists.

Nevertheless, I will continue to refine my art and become a better writer, not just for my own sake, but for the reading pleasures of others.  Hopefully, in the future, I may be better acquainted with the people I respect.  I would really like to get to know them and see what motivates them.  I want to know so much more...

Until then, enjoy.

--Enigma, The Muse
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CelestialMemories's avatar
I know exactly how you feel, I'm also incredibly intimidated by other writers here on deviantart :) But what's good is that of course over the years you're going to continue to improve and improve and you'll make it to that level! I know you will :)